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Take Flight
01:29
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Fly away… Find a way…
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Break
02:40
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I have learned repeatedly that nothing ever lasts, and everything will soon fade into the past, and it’s breaking me. Yes, even those you love will eventually exist no more, ‘cause the unfortunate truth is that we’re all Mortality’s whores, and it’s breaking me.
I’m about to break – it’s a harsh reality to take, but we all soon learn to live and accept that death is life.
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3. |
Good Morning Melody
04:40
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This is a good morning melody to break this long, mournful medley, and it’s soaring! It’s just a little bit of reprieve from the things that make me grieve – it’s not pouring.
This is delusion at its finest; just the darkness at its lightest, ‘cause we all know that happiness doesn’t last forever – that sadness will always catch up. Did you hear the good morning melody descend into the minor?
[Guitar solo written and performed by Daniel Mckittrick]
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4. |
Kinshipwreck
06:03
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We were always sailing against tides – the relentless force of your toxic pride. You jettisoned, through your selfish ways, any small chance of calming the rough waves. Somewhere between laziness and greed, you surely became the family tree’s weed. I’ll tell you now, there’s nothing more true, that you don’t deserve the name he gave you.
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5. |
Five Months Later
07:27
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So here I am, looking back on what we had, and I know that I won’t ever get it back, ‘cause your love has long been here and gone and the “we,” for you, is just a memory. So here I am, feeling lonely and pitying myself. I can’t forget the first time you told me how you felt, but you have since moved on, though I still mourn for the “we” I wish wasn’t a memory.
What if you knew how much it hurts to hear you say you love him? I’ll never try to find out, ‘cause I just want you to be happy, but I miss you more than you could ever know and it’s eating at my soul.
I wish that he could tell me something to make me happy.
[Bass solo written and performed by Anthony Stewart]
[Guitar solo written and performed by Dean Bennison]
[Guitar soli written by Reece Denton and performed by Daniel Mckittrick]
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6. |
The Sleeping Song
06:22
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Drunk on doubt and a constant loop of thoughts that is weighing on my mind – I’m an insomniac of sorts – and this is but one of so many sleepless nights. I wonder why I can’t clear my head and fall asleep.
Yesterday becomes today becomes tomorrow and I wonder what it takes to rid me of these thoughts of you and I, and to fall asleep, just this once, tonight.
[Guitar solo written and performed by Daniel Mckittrick]
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7. |
The Release
03:45
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It’s cold and empty inside this house without you, and, beside me, lays, completely soused, a pile of tissues. I’ve waited for the release, and now, with bated breath, I carry the name you gave me.
I can’t believe it’s been a whole year and this song’s still the same. I’m living a life now without you here, and it’s a life filled with pain. It’s been long gone now – the release – and, with a mind so burdened, I carry on; I just keep on. I know you wouldn’t want this – a grieving son – so now, with bated breath, I carry the name you gave me.
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Cancer
06:41
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The apple fell, contrary to what they say, far from the tree. Somehow, I found my own way, despite the fact you were cancer before you had the cancer in your lungs – you were cancer as a dad. How can I grieve for someone who caused so much grief? Drunk and stubborn – a tyrant who gave no reprieve. Violent and loud – we did not feel safe in our home. The cancer in your drink made a young boy feel so alone.
With drink in can in hand, you transformed. At first, proud words, I heard, then wild storms.
Oh, Cancer, please! I am on my knees – a faithless man who misses his dad. Bring him back, bring him back. I miss him so bad.
A proud and loving father when sober, but three beers in an hour – most nights, drunk. The father that I needed, taken over by the cancer he drank endlessly… down. A proud and loving father when sober, and, three years in succession, happiness, but the father that I had was taken over by the cancer he had in his lungs. Down.
I saw the light fade away. What a sight – the decay. From night to day.
Fa(r)ther, he went in a noise of blue and red, then the next day, “Burial’s more costly,” she said. Day after that, turned up to start my HSC. A name was all I could write, but at least they know it was me.
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9. |
Eye of the Storm
07:03
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Just breathe in deep and count from one to ten. I know it’s harder now than way back then. We have thick skin, but we are imploding. It all goes by without ever slowing.
Just hold on. Don’t let go of hope that we’ll make it through. See the mountain in a different hue.
I’ve seen too many tears fall from your eyes. All relieved exhales now are stressed out sighs, but believe skies are within your reach – survive the mundane and you’ll find your niche.
…See the other side – it’s in plain view.
[Bass solo written by Reece Denton and performed by Anthony Stewart]
We may never find our place in this cold and heartless world, but there is solace and warmth within our arms and our hearts. We may never find our place, but I’ll always look forward to the next time I see you.
[Guitar solo written by Reece Denton and performed by Daniel Mckittrick]
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10. |
Growing Symptoms
21:42
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Pt. I – The Wear and the Tear
I was once innocent to the world and the hurt that it can bring to a poor child. Then things turned. Reality felt unreal as I lost, one by one, forever, those I care for. Stinging eyes, trembling hands, weakened knees, a lumpy throat – these are all things so familiar – and I feel so alone; desperate to see them again, though I know they’re gone forevermore.
Simple breaths, in and out, as I act passively throughout what seem to be endless days. I have lost the will to be the one who is left behind to wonder what we are left behind for. The pain, I can’t ignore, of knowing that, by the worst possible luck to have, we are all, in the end, subject to things such as sickness and injuries or, at least, an estimate of how long we’ve got ‘til we are Mortality’s whores.
I’ve seen some truths that this world has. I may be just a youth, but I’ve felt my share. I once had the strength to stand up tall, but now it starts to show – the wear and the tear.
…and what of those who are still here beside me? Is there even a point to having love for them? Trends would show that, at some point, they will not be, so then what is the point of having love for them?
Pt. II – The Things That Make Me Grieve
[Guitar solo written and performed by Reece Denton]
[Reprise of the “Good Morning Melody” sung by ‘The Sentimental Voices’]
[Guitar solo written and performed by David Eaton]
Pt. III – Sentimentalism
There are so many people that I had once called my friends. I really thought some were true, but time has disproven that, so why do I miss a past built on false pretenses? I suppose I am just a sentimentalist. I remember the nice words and friendly smiles. They turned out to be as shallow as the values that they hold dear, so it’s not much of a loss, but still I seem to miss them. I suppose I am just a sentimentalist.
The promise of forever did not hold up – empty words that deceived me. I’ve learned to know who my real friends are – a valued skill that’s set me free.
You were there, holding my hand, and, do not get me wrong, I am thankful – yes, I truly am – but you’ve since changed. You’re not the same, so now, without your help, I carry the name he gave me.
Pt. IV – The Wear and the Tear (Reprise)
I’ve seen some truths that this world has. I may be just a youth, but I’ve felt my share. I once had the strength to stand up tall, but now it starts to show – the wear and the tear.
Pt. V – Far Too Soon
What’s the point of loving when we know everyone dies in the end? It’s a sad day when we are left behind to wonder. What’s the point of it all when all the beautiful souls leave this ugly world? It’s a sad day when we ask ourselves this question.
[Guitar and voice soli written and performed by Reece Denton]
I’ve had the pleasure of knowing some of the most beautiful people to grace this earth, and they’ve had the greatest influence on the life that I’ve lived so far. I thought it hurt to let them go, but what hurts more is holding on. In childhood innocence, I could never fathom such a harsh reality. I’ve had the pleasure of knowing some of the most beautiful people to grace this earth, but, time and time again, I’ve had to say goodbye to them far too soon.
“Look all around you. See what I see. There are those who believe in you and what you want to be. Don’t succumb to the night; you’ll be fine without me. Let them all be your light and you’ll make it through…”
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11. |
The Uplift
02:00
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[Guitar solo written and performed by Daniel Mckittrick]
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12. |
Opportunity
08:45
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It passes by – that moment that could change it all – and who knows why we shut it out with solid walls, and I have lived by simple breaths, in and out, but now I give myself to life without doubt. Without fear, no regrets, without doubt, I give myself to life.
…and there it goes again – that moment that could change it all. You can depend on me to not let you fall, ‘cause I have lived by simple breaths, in and out, but now I give myself to love without doubt. Without fear, no regrets, without doubt, I give myself to love.
[Guitar ensemble soli written and performed by Reece Denton]
Light is love, love is life, and life is light, and so, without any yield, I will fight.
…and I say goodbye with friends by my side as you fly away and find a way – as you take flight!
[Guitar solo written and performed by Douglas Skene]
…as you fly away.
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Bending 'round to pick myself back up again, 'cause you weren't quite so mutual when I told you that I like you like they do in the movies. I'm back down on this apathetic floor again, 'cause I got hit quite bad when I found that real life is not like it's like in the movies.
The floor looks so far away when reality seems like a bad dream and you are so far away with my ribcage picked clean.
Come on, come on, don't be so far away.
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